• John Fawkes: Drums
  • Steven Gott: Bass Guitar
  • Matt D'Urso: Guitars
  • Markus Diersbock: Vocals

Recorded at RARE FOOTAGE STUDIO, Laguna Beach, CA

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Backing Vocals on "This Final Time": JENNIFER MORRIS

Produced, Mixed and Engineered by: STEVE JONAS except: "This Final Time, "See What I Hear", and "Ashley" by: CHRIS HUTCHINGSON

Cover Photo: VICTOR

Recorded and Digitally Mastered March - June 1987 at RARE FOOTAGE STUDIO, Laguna Beach, CA

Thanks to: CHAD, the "WEB" MAN TOM,JO, CHRISTINA, SARA, TIM, RANDY, COLLIN, JON HALPERIN and to everyone at S.M.S. for their suppport.

Special Thanks to: STEVEN JONAS, CHRIS HUTCHINGSON, MR. and MRS. GOTT, MR. and MRS. FAWKES, KATHLEEN NEELY, GILLIE, and JENNIFER MORRIS.

In Memory of: CHRIS QUINTON 1970 - 1987

All songs copyright (c)1987 Markus Diersbock, Steve Gott, Matt D'urso. All Rights Reserved.

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Ashley
Words: Markus Diersbock
Music: Matt Durso / Steve Gott
Ashley's a girl,
but not like the rest.
She's never had any friends.
She just sits and stares
at the windowsill
hoping her life would end...today.
She says there's just no other way.

It's not so bad
when she's all alone.
In time it will heal her pain.
She just closes her mind
to the rest of the world,
'cause she's got nothing to gain.

Where are you going, Ashley?
Why are you crying?
Are you dying?
Do you find yourself in me?
I need you more than you need me.

Shedding her tears
through those painful years.
She never could make it right.
She just tried and cried
in those lonely years.
Never could reach the light.


Where are you going, Ashley?
Are are you crying?
Are you dying?
Are you finding yourself in me?
I need you more than you need me.
Than you need me.


I never wanted you!
I never needed you!
I never wanted anybody
who was just like you!


I never wanted you!
I never needed you!
I never wanted anybody
who was just like you!
My little Ashley.


Why are you crying?

Why are you crying,
my little Ashley?

Why are you crying,
Ashley?

Why are you crying?
Are you dying?
Why are you lying
to me,
my little
Ashley?

Ashley is crying
in the back of her mind
so people won't know
what she knew.
Isn't it funny how we cover
things up?
'cause, Ashley could be me or you.
As I Do You
Words: Markus Diersbock
Music: Matt Durso / Steve Gott
"You love me, as I do you."

Undone

It's like a shot in
the dark, 
when I guess what you're
thinking. 
Well, I guess we still 
just aren't speaking 

As I do you
As I do you 
I do you 

I step out of the car 
and into your heart. 
Under the covers
I come.

As I do you
As I do you 
I do you 

Undone 

I want to reach out
to stranger's hands
Not forgetting
just
who I am.

As I do you
As I do you 
I do you 

I'm undone

Do you think of me
when you're with him?
Or don't you remember
my face?

As he does you,
just as I did you
I do you 

You're my world

He does you,
just as I did you
I do you 

I'm undone

As I open my mind's closed doors,
I think of what I have 
and that I want more 

I want more.
Through Stranger's Eyes
Words: Markus Diersbock
Music: Steve Gott / Matt Durso
Through stranger's eyes.
Say "Hello",
but wave bye-bye.

Angry whispers in the night.
Jealousy of wrongs and rights.

And when you go, 
you go away from me,
to a point of ours, 
which I just cannot see.
When you go away from me.

This commitment ripped apart
by trust.
Never believing in us.

And when you go,
I just can't see,
what you'll do next,
with whom you'll be 

And when I go, you say, "No!"
And when I stay, you say, "Go!"

And you go, you go.
Forever and ever.

Sometimes I feel, 
I'm looking
through stranger's eyes,
'cause you just don't realize.

That when you go,
you go away from me,
to a point of ours,
which I just cannot see.


Through stranger's eyes.
Say "Hello",
but wave bye-bye.

Oh, through stranger's eyes.
Say "Hello",
but wave bye-bye.
Wave bye-bye.
This Final Time
Words: Markus Diersbock / Kathleen Neely
Music: Matt Durso / Steve Gott
Backing Vocals: Jennifer Morris
Sometimes I can see myself,
telling you what I want to say.
But, when I want to, 
the words,
they don't come my way.

I dream about being with you. 
And I know, I know,
that it couldn't be a distant dream.


I haven't gotten enough,
maybe what I want,
you won't give up,
why not?
I say that
I don't need alot.


I dream about being with you. 
And I know, I know,
that it couldn't be a distant dream.

This Final Time.
This Final Time.
This Final Time.
This Final Time.

I'm wrapped
around your finger,
and you're not even
within my reach.


I dream about being with you. 
And I know, I know,
that it couldn't be a distant dream.

Is it that bad?
Are we so far gone, 
that it doesn't matter
to whom we belong?

What will happen next?
I just hope you'd
visit me 


I dream about being with you. 
And I know, I know,
that it couldn't be a distant dream.


What will happen next?
I just cannot play
this game.
I hope you'd visit me,
after I go insane.
And I dream.
I dream about being with you.
And I know, I know,
that this could be the final time.
This final time.
We Are Who We Are
Words: Markus Diersbock
Music: Matt Durso / Steve Gott
Sometimes we say things,
not meant to say.
Or do things 
that's
just our way. 

Sometimes we don't see 
another person's view.
Or lie, to hide, 
like
me and you.

Sometimes we want something 
that we can never have.
No, 
we just can't have.


We are who we are
and that's what we are.
Forever and ever, 
apart or together.


We are who we are
and that's what we are.
Forever and ever, 
apart or together.

Sometimes we make promises 
that we never keep.
Sometimes we love and hate,
but never speak.


Being with you
is like, 
being behind
prison bars.


We are who we are
and that's what we are.
Forever and ever, 
apart or together.


We are who we are
and that's what we are.
Forever and ever, 
apart or together.

I'd like to go back
if I could, 
to change the hands
of time.
To make better
the mistakes,
mistakes which
haunt me now.


Being with you
is like, 
being behind
prison bars.


We are who we are
and that's what we are.
Forever and ever, 
apart or together.


We are who we are
and that's what we are.
Forever and ever, 
apart or together.

(Repeat while fading)

Apart or together.
Now and Forever.
We are who we are.
Nirvana
Words: Markus Diersbock
Music: Matt Durso
Remember when the walls fell down,
and I made you cry?
You took yours and I took mine.
There was nothing left
but to die.

Nirvana is a place
where we can go.
No troubles there it's all gold.

Nirvana is a place
where we can go.
No troubles there it's all gold.
It's all gold.

You wake up to me one day
and said your dreams
had all gone away.
Your feelings were put on public display. 
The nightmare of life, it won't go away.


Nirvana is a place
where we can go.
No troubles there it's all gold.

Nirvana is a place
where we can go.
No troubles there it's all gold.
It's all gold.


Go away and find your dreams.
Don't look at the ceiling
don't look at the beams.
I needed you deep and true,
but how can you stay
when your dreams need you?


Nirvana is a place
where we can go.
No troubles there it's all gold.

Nirvana is a place
where we can go.
No troubles there it's all gold.
It's all gold.

As we get old
and our friends pass away,
we'll stay together
until that day.

Heaven on earth...Nirvana
Heaven on earth...Nirvana
Heaven on earth...
What He Has
Words: Markus Diersbock
Music: Matt Durso / Steve Gott
You think, I'm feeling great.
That I'm feeling good.
Doing those things,
that I know I should.

It's the things 
that you
do and say 
that make these
good things 
come my way.

I want to have what he has.
Why can't I have what she has?
Every time I see your face,
it reminds me of some other place.

Do you know just how it feels, 
to have your emotions repealed?
Given away,
then taken astray.


I want to have what he has.
Why can't I have what she has?
But, every time I see your face,
it reminds me of some other place.

What he has.
What he has.
What he has.


This endless struggle 
that
one endures.
Pushing down, tearing down.
Belittling the unintended.


I want to have what he has.
Why can't I have what she has?
But, every time I see your face,
it reminds me of some other place.


What he has.
What he has.
What he has.


What he has.
What he wants.
What he needs.
What he has.
That he wants.

You think it's going great.
That it's going good.
Doing those things,
that I know I should.

It's the things
that you do and say
that make these good things
come my way.


I want to have what he has.
Why can't I have what she has?
But, every time I see your face,
it reminds me of some other place.


What he has.
What he has.
What he has.


What he has.
What he wants.
What he needs.
What he has.
That he wants.
Mind Runs Away
Words: Markus Diersbock
Music: Matt Durso / Steve Gott
Was it the dark
that sent chills
through me?
Or was it the person
I had just become?


What have I done?
Have I wasted something
just begun?
I need to feel it.
I'm needing this
guilt to heal it.

Her cries and screams,
just echo endlessly.
Echo endlessly,
in my mind.


What have I done?
Have I wasted something
just begun?
I need to feel it.
I'm needing this
guilt to heal it.

Run, run, run away.
Run, run, run away.
Run, run, run away.
Run, run, run away.
Run away.

I look at the mirror
at who I have become
and now I seem to have
a stranger's charm.
See What I Hear
Words: Markus Diersbock
Music: Matt Durso / Steve Gott
Never feeling it
it passes so fast.
Without realizing it,
it's already past.
It's the breath,
before the last:
ending inner pain.

The shiver ran up my spine,
finding out you were no longer mine.
Why did you go away,
on that night when I drove
you away?

See what I hear...

See what I hear...
If you could see what I hear.

When you feel the four walls closing,
closing deep in your mind.
And you lack the understanding,
that's so hard to find...

See what I hear.
If you could see what I hear.

And when you think
you can't hold on,
'cause of everything in your
life's gone wrong.
I'll hold your hand
and wipe your tears,
like I have for all these years.

If you could see what I hear.

With no one who cared, 
I was your friend.
But, I turned away,
when you reached the end.

Why did I turn away?
There was so much left to say.
This Cold World
Words: Markus Diersbock
Music: Matt Durso / Steve Gott
Is the whole world this cold?
Are all the people just
like you?
They tell you, they're different
and then they rip your heart
in two.

Heard something today 
that hurt me inside.
I built up something
beautiful,
that's now
destroyed.

I had so much respect.
It's all been
washed away,
from what you did,
to what you say.


Is the whole world this cold?
Are all the people just
like you?
They tell you, they're different
and then they rip your heart
in two.

This cold world.

        In two...

Is the whole world this cold?

        They rip your heart in two, in two.

People just like you.
They tell you they're different.
They tell you they're different.

        In two...

And then they...

        rip your heart.

rip it in two.


Is the whole world this cold?
Are all the people just
like you?
They tell you, they're different
and then they rip your heart
in two.

Is there someone
crying in the twilight,
that you always leave,
all alone?


Is the whole world this cold?
Are all the people just
like you?
They tell you, they're different
and then they rip your heart
in two.

(Repeat while fading)

This cold world.